Mug messages

My friend Kay in Laramie sent me a John Wayne mug that says, "Courage is being scared to death-but saddling up anyway."

I love that...but it got me to thinking about cancer and courage.

Is it courage? I read about folks going through awful ordeals and they rise up. Yep, courage. I read about folks who endure surgeries and procedures and get on with their lives, LIVE their lives. Yep, courage.

Courage, Determination, Attitude...

I have another mug I love. Missy sent it to me. It is white with bold black letters. It simply says, f ! @k cancer. (I, of course, am adding the symbols here-the mug just spells it out!)
I know some folks are offended by the f ! @k cancer stuff...but, to me, it is the same as the courage statement, but with big fat attitude! This is not an enemy you speak kindly to!

Then there is my Life is Good mug. Ahhhhhhh.....

Indeed.

hugs,
chris
p.s. to Kris (TMK)-I am overwhelmed by the "our day" gift. Wow...and thank you for the words of cheer! Friday the 13th rocks--as do you!

Power of the Positive

It is all in how you think and how you prepare and who you have on your team...

I started this year off with the resolve to be more positive and be more hopeful. You know, it really does work! I still have to go to chemo but I find I am not dragging the pissed and dark to the appointment with me or into the days that follow. I am not saying that I don't have moments that I just want to pull on my f!@k cancer hat and pour something strong into my f!@k cancer mug and growl around my house... But, intention is powerful.

This quote was on one of the discussions on my Crazy Sexy Cancer forum: To Norman Vincent Peale in The Power of Positive Thinking: "Become a possibilitarian. No matter how dark things seem to be or actually are, raise your sights and see possibilities - always see them, for they're always there."

hugs,
chris

long time no chat!

Sorry it has been so long since I posted...
I was on the road for work-yahoo!! I love it so much-out there training in the libraries. I really lucked out-drove the I-80 corridor and was in Pinedale on DRY roads!
Then my daughter was here-yahoo again! Carrie and I shopped for baby stuff (oh my gosh-so much cute stuff! I am in big trouble!), maternity stuff, looked at her baby book, cooked...

So you see, I have had a wonderful two weeks.

Monday is chemo. I am also doing acupuncture that day. I am excited to try this. I met the acupuncturist in a store in Fort Collins. One of those lucky moments. I'll let you know how it goes.

Happy Friday the 13th!!
hugs,
chris

back up

...and then with the turn of a valve, my fresh start feels a bit soiled...

The infusion hit me pretty hard. Sat there for quite a bit, blood pressure spiking, sick... My chemo nurse Kenna (she rocks!) sat and talked with me for a bit. We talked about the chemo and how long it has been. Once I started to feel better, I headed back up the highway. Was in bed pretty much from late Saturday afternoon til Tuesday morning.
But, once I started to feel better Wednesday, it was all good...fresh as a daisy! (Ok, am I taking the fresh thing too far?!)

Next chemo is on a Monday (Feb. 16th). My daughter will be here next week-YAHOO! Dr. Kanard let me push chemo a few days so that I could feel good the weekend of Valentine's for her baby shower. Yep-I get to be a grandma! Is that just the coolest?!

Just started a book by Marianne Williamson and this was in the introduction:

But the point of a life journey isn't whether or not we've fallen down; it's whether or not we've learned how to get back up.

hugs,
chris