Here I am!

I let this slip, didn't I? It is weird to find that after more than 3 years of dealing with the cancer and going through treatment, it has slipped into "regular" life... Being on the same treatment for so long also means that there are no new developments, no changes (thank goodness). I am so incredibly lucky.
I know that there are days that I am blindsided by it, by the piano dangling over my head. I also know that it is a weird kind of stress (no, that is not the word, but I cannot find one) that I am still here. It did not look good at the beginning and I spent a lot of time preparing myself for that. I know that my family and friends and colleagues did the same. We worked ourselves up, we did the "hurry up and have good times," we mourned.
Ok, I don't know how to wrap this up...so hard to explain without sounding like I am bummed about it. Don't get me wrong-I am very happy to be here!!
Thank you for all you do to make this all bearable. I am taking steps to get even healthier and I promise to keep on keeping on.
hugs,
chris